Nevermind the usual comments about how long it's been. I've been busy. Single since that dreadful day in August. It was more than anything I've felt before and ended before it began. A year older, which it doesn't feel like. I haven't had hot water since May and haven't had running water for over a month. Here's where the channelling my ancestors comes into play. I've been hauling water into the house for a month so that I can pour 5 gallons into the top part of the toilet to flush. I don't think I'll ever think of a shower the same way again. Bringing the strength from my great x3 grandparents who had to haul water for irrigation. Luckily no one has made fun of me to my face for it. My roommates suck. At least in terms of paying bills on time. I have two jobs, both part time, enlightening and fun. I've learned a lot in the lines of conspiracy theories and it's beneficial to question people. I miss my family, but I still have a few good friends. The ones that were ok with the lack of money, which I am saving well now. Ish. Rent is too damn high. I miss a dear friend I hurt before my ex. The one I could talk to for three hours on the phone before we knew it. I deserve what I lost. Maybe it's just my emotional time of the month, or I'm finally being reflective. But I can really only hope the great times are here and continue. It's all in how you chose to remember it and since I've learned so much I don't think I could be disappointed at where I am. I feel so different, like I am pickier about my words and following what feels best and makes the most sense. Realize differences I had never experienced. Soooo young and soooo much time left and soooo much to do. Not dating again till I'm thirty. Over it. I'm alone but not lonely.
Lighter note, I've had sooooooo much beer and wine within the last couple months in prep for and after the opening of the ale house I work at. My bosses are awesome. And they are connected like I joined a family. She hugged me right after I was broken up with, brought me inside and gave me a beer. Given me time at work, like a priority. Found me the 2nd job. Total awesome cat lady. Huge heart.
I should go do something productive. Which is most of my life at this point.
