Man, it's been too long. You're right and you know who you are. I should write in here more. I should remember my lunch too. lol. I did write twice in this span of a couple plus weeks, just in my other book.
It hasn't been great. But I'm learning still. The people I've talked to recently and seen in person have helped. Most people are just caring and supportive, and I think a few are genuinely appreciative of me just listening.
I want to help people, even if me helping makes me feel better. I'll be selfish in that. And I might be in the wrong profession at the moment for that...
Day 13: (super late) I need a goal. I want to be so good at something that if I took a test on it I'd be an expert. Tough part is that I have a really hard time sticking to goals. Even when I was little I quit gymanstics, I quit soccer for volleyball and I eventually quit that too. I've quit from school and I've quit/lost a job. I quit job searching, talking to people I knew, and quit having sympathy for people who don't try.
I need to get out of my head and out there. Not per se actually out, but into researching. saving, and planning. I have plenty of time, and the more I plan it out and save and research the more the goal will be worth. I just have to figure out what it is. Might start with looking at pictures. I think they say that to achieve a goal it helps to look at it every day. Might need some new backgrounds for my phone and iPad...and new playlists. I haven't done that in forever.
Wednesday, January 25, 2012
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Oh Pandora!
How I miss thee now that I have you! It's pretty ridiculous. It just knows. Best station ever = My song of LIFE = Drive by Incubus. LOVE this station. Soo happy, every time.
I wanna watch Misfits. She's totally bald, and hif two girls are both trouble! I wish I had more time for TV. Might need more tube time with no money. I'm going to make myself a budget, like an adult, so I'm not guessing my balance in my bank account.
Totally played Cribbage with my Mom tonight. First game was mine, hands down. I got a hand of 21 and a hand of like 16 as my last hand and both were Cribbs! So much awesome! 2nd game I got skunked. Lol. Balance. and 3rd game I was teaching my 17 yr old roommate.
Simple things that made my day: playing with a chinese yo-yo...debating what color the yoyo was, (the color carrot was mentioned), 230 TV watchings, seeing the Space Needle when I woke up, Pandora, left-overs for dinner, hearing from a coworker that cauliflower is a bland, albino version of broccoli, and folding Laundry...weird I know.
Day 12: I Love Cleaning as long as it's not dishes, and I can't bake/cook well at all. I had trouble cleaning my room when I was little, not because I didn't want to, I was just very confused as to how. My mom used to make me a check list, with boxes of steps to clean my room. Maybe it was then, or once I got the hang of it, that I realized how much I enjoy it. I considered professionally cleaning, but I can imagine that it'd be like food, it's awesome until your surrounded by it. But people note that my room is "clean" when in reality there's still soo much to do, my "dirty room" tends to be qualified as "clean" to a ton of my friends. At least it used to. That's changed as my friends have gotten older. And I can't really cook. I can do ground beef and that's it in terms of meat. I can do pasta, but I've even burned that before. I can make almost anything in a microwave, or from a box. But I wouldn't put my life on baking, nor creativity. But I can definitely taste test just fine. Lol.
Hate dishes. And it was only after living with someone that wasn't family for just a little bit to make me realize they always suck, but they need to be done. That's just that.
I wanna watch Misfits. She's totally bald, and hif two girls are both trouble! I wish I had more time for TV. Might need more tube time with no money. I'm going to make myself a budget, like an adult, so I'm not guessing my balance in my bank account.
Totally played Cribbage with my Mom tonight. First game was mine, hands down. I got a hand of 21 and a hand of like 16 as my last hand and both were Cribbs! So much awesome! 2nd game I got skunked. Lol. Balance. and 3rd game I was teaching my 17 yr old roommate.
Simple things that made my day: playing with a chinese yo-yo...debating what color the yoyo was, (the color carrot was mentioned), 230 TV watchings, seeing the Space Needle when I woke up, Pandora, left-overs for dinner, hearing from a coworker that cauliflower is a bland, albino version of broccoli, and folding Laundry...weird I know.
Day 12: I Love Cleaning as long as it's not dishes, and I can't bake/cook well at all. I had trouble cleaning my room when I was little, not because I didn't want to, I was just very confused as to how. My mom used to make me a check list, with boxes of steps to clean my room. Maybe it was then, or once I got the hang of it, that I realized how much I enjoy it. I considered professionally cleaning, but I can imagine that it'd be like food, it's awesome until your surrounded by it. But people note that my room is "clean" when in reality there's still soo much to do, my "dirty room" tends to be qualified as "clean" to a ton of my friends. At least it used to. That's changed as my friends have gotten older. And I can't really cook. I can do ground beef and that's it in terms of meat. I can do pasta, but I've even burned that before. I can make almost anything in a microwave, or from a box. But I wouldn't put my life on baking, nor creativity. But I can definitely taste test just fine. Lol.
Hate dishes. And it was only after living with someone that wasn't family for just a little bit to make me realize they always suck, but they need to be done. That's just that.
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